A year ago today was the hardest day in my life.
A year ago from yesterday I was in shock.
But it didn’t hit until February 28th when I spent my entire morning, half of my senior schedule with an empty desk.
I remember denying it when my brother read it off of twitter “it’s just a joke” I thought. I still wish it was.
I remember crying the day Folabi died and going to Kat’s to comfort and me comforted. That didn’t prepare me for a year ago today.
I got to the school and had kept a good enough front where it was only small tears dripping almost unnoticed.
Then the bell rang.
I walked as slow as possible and was greeted by my stat teacher, crying, and I walked into a room of crying students. I sat and started an intense cry that lasted the entire morning. Our entire class cried as we all noticed the one empty seat next to us. Our principle tried to talk to us but we all knew that there was nothing that could be said.
We went to the auditorium, mainly because that empty desk was too painful.
The next class, same thing. I left though. Mr. Heath told me I could go in anytime that day and I did. He tried to comfort but there’s nothing to be said. We all know that he’s in a better place but he could have made this place better.
Next was comp sci, it was hard painful know that that is where I became good friends with him, albeit it was because Folabi and his friends mostly copied me but we did sit together and mess with each other.
For that day, life in my classes had stopped because we were all seniors and couldn’t imagine this happening.
I managed to play a hilarious video of Folabi in english and although there were tears there was also laughter, a first for that day.
For the rest of senior year there was an empty seat in my classes and at graduation that reminded me of how short and fragile life is.
An empty seat that has changed my life.
A year ago today I spent my entire day in tears mourning the loss of an amazing friend.
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